Twelve Days

Hi guys. I guess you’ve probably noticed my absence from the website recently. Well, I’ve finally felt good enough to post something. So here goes. I’ve been in the hospital for the last twelve days and I’m still not sure when I will get out. Hopefully soon. Hopefully. I’m definitely ready.

Unfortunately, I was pretty sick when I arrived. I started out with an infection that made its way into my transplanted kidney and then into my bloodstream. Not good. Not fun.

But what makes matters much more difficult is that for more than a year now, my transplanted kidney has not been doing it’s best. I chose not to tell anyone because I wanted to focus on being positive, but I’ve slowly had to come to terms that my kidney, the wonderful gift of life given to me more than eighteen years ago will not be with me forever. Actually, something I never really expected to happen. But I was so young when I received it and it has done so superbly over the years, I never had a reason to question its lifespan. I’ve learned recently however, that 18 years is fantastic for a transplanted kidney and even better since mine was from a deceased donor. I can’t tell you how hard it is to accept that I will have to let this kidney go. Feelings of letting my deceased donor down fill my heart with sadness.

But it is happening. And faster than I anticipated. Before getting sick two weeks ago, I had begun the process to be re-evaluated for another kidney transplant and to be added to the transplant waiting list. In the meantime, my mom is being tested to be a possible donor. I had thought I would have time to do all of this and hopefully have surgery and not skip a beat with my job or with this website that I enjoy sharing with you so much.

No such luck. Since I’ve been here, I’ve started dialysis to take some stress off my distressed kidney while it tries to heal. The hope is that I would be on dialysis for a short while, giving my transplanted kidney time to recuperate. Then, go off dialysis and try to squeak a few more months out before surgery is needed.

The alternative, though which is just as possible is that 1) I’ll be on dialysis until my mom is confirmed as a donor or 2) My mom is not a potential donor and then I would stay on dialysis while I wait on the list for a kidney to become available.

So that’s what’s been going on. That’s the reason for the lack of cake pops and cupcakes and cute. I just wanted to let you know something and thank everyone for their wonderful and inspiring get well wishes. You guys are a huge bright spot in my life. You have no idea how much.

Hugs,
Bakerella

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4,602 comments on “Twelve Days”

  1. our thoughts and prayers are with you, wishing you a quick recovery

  2. first comments !!!!

  3. Thinking of you and hoping for a great outcome very soon!

  4. I’ve never commented before, but have been reading for a looonggg time. Please know that you’re in my thoughts! I’m looking forward to the day you’re back to normal!

  5. Oh, I’m so sorry to hear this! Hang in there…big prayers coming your way!

  6. I’m so sorry, Bakerella! Best wishes for a fast recovery!

  7. My thoughts and prayers are with you (and your Mom) (and the rest of your family for that matter.)

  8. Hugs!
    I am so sorry to hear you haven’t been feeling well and don’t worry about posting until you are better!
    I hope you feel better soon and things work out :)
    xoxo

  9. Oh goodness! Praying for you!!

  10. Keeping my fingers crossed for you! It will all be better! You’ll see! Just be positive and brave!

  11. Please, please, PLEASE rest!!! Take your time to get better! Dont worry about us, we’ll still be here when you get back!!

  12. All the best for a speedy and happy resolution, know that you are missed here and that you are in our thoughts!

  13. For all of the happiness and sweetness you have brought into my life through your book and website my thoughts and prayers are with you. Get well soon!

  14. Oooooh! I’m thinking about you … I’m fairly new to your blog … and I … LOVE IT! I have been thinking about your cakepops since I first heard about them sometime last year and think I shall make a special effort to make some this month as a kind of “solidarity” thing. That way I will be thinking about you the whole time!

    Anyway, here’s to your kidney healing enough to carry you through the next little while, until things are sorted out.

  15. You’re in my thoughts, and so is your mom. I’ll be sending lots of perfect-match juju your way. <3

  16. Prays for you and your family! <3

  17. Keeping you in my heart and prayers. You are very important to a lot of us and as such, hope with amy might that you are on the mend soon.

  18. I’m so sorry you’re going through this. You sound like a strong woman, I hope you get well soon! ((hugs))

  19. so sorry to hear :( i knew something must have been wrong with no updates for so long! i’ll be including you in my prayers.

  20. I’m so sorry to hear this, but i’m glad you shared your story. You’ll be in my thoughts and prayers. I love your blog, but your health comes first. *huge hug*

  21. Thinking and praying for you and your family!

  22. OH MY Goodness! Wishing you all the best for a new kidney!!

  23. Oh sweetie pea, I’m so sorry. Rest up and get yourself better. A break now is much better than if you get even more sick later.

  24. I’ve missed u! I check ur site everyday to see what I’ll be making that weekend :). I will be thinking of u and hope ur better soon hospital stays like that are not a good time at all! I wish u luck get better!

  25. I noticed the absence, and hoped that everything was okay. My prayers will be with you. You are such a bright spot in the blogging community.

  26. My thoughts are with you too. I hope a new kidney comes your way very quickly. I really miss your blog postings. You’re such an inspiration.

  27. Will be praying for you and your family.

  28. sending a prayer and good vibes your way…

  29. You are in my prayers Bakerella! You are such I bright spot in this world, I hope everything turns out well for you. Thanks for all the sweet inspiration :)

  30. As much as I love all things Bakerella, the most important thing is that Miss Bakerella is in the best health possible. Will be sending you prayers, love and strength so that it all works out in the best possible scenario for you. Get well soon!

  31. So sorry to hear about your kidney troubles! I will be praying for you as will a lot more people I’m sure! You are greatly loved and appreciated! Hope you start feeling better soon!

  32. Oh, I was just thinking of you this morning when I saw that Starbucks has cake pops on the menu. I thought that was just the most crazy wonderful thing! Anyways, I will be praying for you for sure!! (((hugs)))

  33. Dear Bakerella, please know you are in my thoughts and prayers. Take care of yourself and rest.

  34. You are in our thoughts and prayers. I hope everything works out, and you’re on the road to recovery soon!!

  35. Bakerella, thoughts with you. Hope you hear good news asap.

  36. Hi, I have Bakerella in my reader and today I notice we’ve been gone for a while. Hope you get well soon! I’m sending very nice vibrations from Brazil!!!

  37. Praying for you. That your mom will be a match and that your transplanted kidney will hold out for you for a while longer.

  38. Long time reader, first time commenter. Wishing you all the best for a speedy recovery. I hope the new transplant goes smoothly. Sending good vibes to you from Australia :)

  39. this brought tears to my eyes. good luck, stay strong, and here’s hoping your mom is a match!

  40. Best wishes for a speedy transplant! My mom had a kidney transplant 5 years ago, so I understand the nervous waiting game and three days a week dialysis. I hope your mom is a match and you won’t have to stay on dialysis very long.

  41. I am so very sorry to hear this – I hoped you were just busy signing books :-(. My good thoughts and wishes are coming your way and I hope everything works out well for you. You take good care of yourself and we will all be right here when you are feeling better. **hugs**

  42. Thanks for sharing something so personal with us. I will definitely be praying for you!

  43. I will be praying for you and your new kidney! Keep your beautiful smile shining!

  44. Love and prayers for a quick recovery!

  45. So sorry to hear about your illness. Thinking of you and your family, and best wishes for your recovery. Feel better Bakerella!

  46. I’m not one to post on blogs, I’m usually a lurker, but you’ve always seemed like such a genuinely good person. I really hope this all goes quickly and smoothly. I wish you and your mom lots and lots of luck.

  47. I spent three weeks in the hospital last year after becoming septic from an intestinal puncture so I feel your pain. I’m so sorry you’re going through this and wanted to let you know that you’re in our prayers and thoughts.

  48. My thoughts and prayers are with you!

  49. So sorry to hear of your troubles. You have also been a bright spot for me as well. I love checking your website and finding the creative and adorable sweets you come up with. I love making them and my children are always so excited to see new ‘yummies!’ Best wishes to you and I will keep you in my prayers.

  50. Praying that you will have a speedy recovery & a new kidney soon. Take care of yourself!

    ((Hugs))

  51. Thinking of you and keeping you in my thoughts and prayers!

  52. Thanks for the update, we’re all rooting for you and we know you’ll pull through!

  53. I’v never commented here before, but I love your site and your super cute cake tops :) Best wishes for a quick recovery!

  54. Praying that your mom is a match & you can have another sucessful kidney transplant.

  55. My stars! I’ll be praying for you.

  56. i am sure u will be alrite. prayers and god bless u. take it easy during the treatment.

  57. Been reading for a while and never seriously commented, but I sure hope that you get better soon and that everything works out expeditiously. I hope your mom is a match. Take care of yourself. Best wishes and thoughts!

  58. Long time reader, first time commenter. Just wanted to say that I am sorry to read of your health troubles, and hope you have a swift recovery. Also, I hope you know that you have so many people out here who appreciate you for brightening our days and who hope for nothing but the best for you.

  59. Thoughts and prayers are with you! Hope you have a quick recovery.

  60. You’re in my thoughts. I love your blog–I check it every morning. I wish you the best!

  61. So sorry you are going through this :( My thoughts and prayers are also with you and your family during this difficult time.

  62. Happy thoughts & prayers for a positive match! Thank you for letting us know what’s going on so we can send you all the positive vibes we can for you!!!! :)

  63. I’m so sorry, Bakerella! I hope everything works out and you feel better soon!

  64. Sending lots of positive thoughts your way!

  65. oh bakerella :( I hope you find a donor soon and feel better! all of your blog followers and fans are sending you get better wishes for a quick and easy recovery.

  66. Hugs to you sweetie!!
    I hope everything works out soon too, and that you can be back to doing what you love!

  67. Love and prayers to you, dear Bakerella!

  68. Sending prayers and (virtual) hugs your way!

  69. ((Hugs)) Sending up prayers for you!

  70. Oh my goodness! I’m heartbroken! I have an extra kidney!!!!!!!!!!!! :) I will be praying for you, that the Lord comforts you, that He gives you His peace and patience, and that the perfect kidney comes knocking on your door.

    Kidney shaped cake pops next???

  71. My goodness, I’ve only just discovered your wonderful website and the delicious looking treats you create, but I’m already hooked. I am so sorry to hear your news and I hope everything works out quickly for you – hospital is not a fab place to be!

  72. You are in my thoughts… best wishes!

  73. Your absence has been felt, and I only wish my original thought that you were off building your business was true.
    Sorry you have to go through all of this and I’m hoping you have a quick recovery.

  74. I noticed your absence. I wish it was for something exciting. Hope all goes well & that you’ll feel like your wonderful self again soon. My thoughts are with you & your Mom.

  75. Bakerella we love you! Get better soon!

  76. So sorry to hear this, but I hope everything turns out well for all involved! Get well soon!

  77. prayers are with you and your family and here’s to good luck and a positive results!

  78. wishing you all the best xoxo

  79. Oh bakerella… My heart is so heavy to hear this news, but I have so much hope for you (and your family) and I will be praying for peace and comfort throughout your whole body and mind, and that you your mother will either be a match or you will find a donor asap.

    Wishing you sunshine and cheer.
    Bianca

  80. Praying for you, Bakerella!

  81. Get Well soon! We all miss you and hope you are able to find a donor.

  82. you are in my thoughts and prayers – wishing you a speedy recovery! ;)

  83. I’m so sorry to hear about your hospitalization/kidney issues! Thoughts, hugs and prayers to you… don’t worry about us; get better soon!

  84. Everyday I look to see if you have posted something new becuase it is so neat to see how talented and gifted you truly are. I wish you all the best. Life really is a blessing, I know everything will work out for you.
    God Bless You!

  85. I’m so glad to hear from you! I was very worried. You are in my thoughts and I wish you the speediest of recoveries! I guess my cupcake calendar will have to do for now!

  86. I hope you feel better soon, and I hope your mom is able to be a match. Best wishes during this difficult process!

  87. Wishing you the best outcome. I hope your new kidney will be with you soon.

  88. I’m another faithful reader who’s never commented before. Just wanted to say we’re all thinking of you and hoping you the quickest and best recovery possible. Go little kidney go!

  89. Stay strong Bakerella!!! I’ll be praying for you to get a new kidney asap. In the mean time I’ll eat cake in your honor ;)

  90. Thoughts and prayers are with you!
    We miss you!!

  91. I have an extra kidney. I’m not sure what the process is, but I’m happy to offer one up if you need it. Email me :)

  92. Oh my. Cake pops can wait. Get better soon!

  93. I have missed you. Thank you for sharing your story, you are an inspiration to me. I hope everything works out foe the best

  94. I just wanted to add my love and support to all the previous comments. I wish you luck through the scary realities that face you. I wish we could help somehow.

  95. Prayers to you and your family!

  96. Here’s to a positive match, a successful op and for you and your mom to be back on your feet in no time. My friend here in ATL is going through some drastic kidney surgery next week. Her transplant failed due to antibody build ups and she has been on peritoneal dialysis for 7 years – there are so many ups and downs and struggles for you renal patients. My heart and best wishes go out to you. You have great spirit and sense of fight and you’re so very much loved (even by your virtual friends) xx

  97. Wishing you all the very best Bakerella. You are an amazing person and inspiration to all. I wish you a matching donor with your mom if not someone else fast and a speedy recovery. Thanks for sharing with us all. You are very brave!

  98. BIG virtual hugs and love being sent your way — i know your amazing spirit will get you through these tough days, we are all here rooting for you!!

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